Posts Tagged ‘gratitude’

Yoga is WEIRD.

Tuesday, November 16th, 2010

So often I say to myself and to others – I wish I could call yoga something different. Relieve “yoga” of all its stereotyped afflictions and shift the perspective of those who are resistant to it – show them the practice that changed my life – for the better.

When I first began doing yoga, I thought it was all weird. I did not chant, I often left during savasana because it felt torturous having to just…LAY there. My mind chattering monkey that I could not quiet. I did not connect with the language or the stereotyped lifestyle. I did not want to “sparkle out my fingertips” and cringed and the smell of nag champa – ok, ok…I still do.

This is not a post about how I changed my mind or was drawn in when I realized all the amazing benefits of yoga – which are more than I can name (I hope it would be obvious!).
This is about yoga and its ability to open up the acceptance of self as we *already are*. Eventually, I knew that I could get into my flow alongside any Lulu-clad muscle man or patchouli princess and still feel like I was right where I belonged. That the only thing separating me from the other human beings I took class with was….ME.

Over the course of time, tears and near-criminally honest self-evaluation; it was all too clear. We are all a little weird. Whether we do yoga or not, the important lesson lies in our ability to stop judging others and ourselves. To find clarity in the present moment and feel peace with what already is. Yoga is just one way to get there.

So, instead of trying to change yoga to make it more palatable for the masses of folks who feel more comfortable judging it than doing it – I have decided to accept that it may not be for everyone. But the fact is, there is a practice that everyone can do and feel better for it. JUST BREATHE.

After all, that’s all it really is.

If we are able to breathe – a whole world of possibility opens up for us. The opportunity to shift, change or accept becomes all the more available. The breath is our bridge between the body and the mind. So if you can breathe – you can do yoga. In fact, you already are.

How weird is that?

In love,
Elle

Illumination of Heart

Thursday, November 11th, 2010

Dear you,

It’s been so long since I have written.

So much has happened in the last few months – I am teaching at what feels like mach speed and learning more about myself through my students every day.

Teaching has been a humbling and incredibly gratifying experience all rolled into one. I have had many conversations with other teachers who concur that we definitely do not do this for the money. The love of waking up each day and realizing that we literally “go through the motions” but it is laced with an intention to improve our conditioning. To know that all of the work we do on ourselves inadvertently serves the world, leaves you feeling like you are about to spill over with gratitude.

Max Strom said: “This is how it works: When a room is dark and you open a window, allowing the sun to fill the room with light, the darkness flees”.

Yoga is my light. Every day is a struggle in some way – every day is a choice to arrive and be with myself and create my reality around the circumstance. When I make space for the light – the darkness has no choice but to leave. There is not enough space in my heart for both.

Enough for now…

In love,
Elle

Perfectly Imperfect.

Thursday, July 15th, 2010
Take A Deep Breath...

Just for now.

Today started out ok. Somewhere along the line, I lost my focus and started feeling mighty sorry for myself.

It happens to the best of us.

My mind began a snowball of the what-ifs, the shouldas, the couldas, & the wouldas. Slowly I felt my energy drain, my ego picked up speed of inner dialogue of how awful I was, how lame of a teacher I am, how my bank account couldn’t support a small family of hamsters – let alone me and my own family.

It was a press nine-whine-whine, call a whhhhaaaambulance fest, I tell ya.

So I did what most everyone would naturally do. I sat on my couch and wallowed in my own mental muck. Yum right?

I can practically hear you all screaming – “Yoga! Go to a yoga class!!” Well, I didn’t. Not every day allows for a yoga class of my own. So yoga needs to come to us in different ways. So I sat.

…and I sat.

I lamented about how crappy my life was inside my head and eventually…it got boring. However, I had dug myself this hole (in my head…i need it like a…get it? see what I did there? ha) and now I have to get myself out.

So I told myself that I had 10 more minutes of full wallowing and then it was time to take some action.

My brain went into meltdown. My ego screamed and wailed about how awful I felt and what was the point? Just Stay On The COUCH. Mmmm couch!!!!

But I did it. I allowed myself the space to feel as awful as humanly possible (its what I my ego wanted after all) and then took several deep breaths, got up off the couch, made myself a tea and forced myself out into the sunshine.

It is now 1 hour later and here I am writing this blog. I saw some beautiful yogi friends and have an opportunity for a new class on the horizon. All because I made the conscious effort to shift mental gears. The universe responded lovingly and openly.

We do not need to be slaves to our emotional states, nor do we need to try to rid ourselves of these same emotions. We want to be whole creatures, full of life and the full spectrum emotion/creativity/vibrancy of who we are! This includes the dark stuff. (Just think of it as dark chocolate – it’s good for you I swear!)

So the next time you get stuck…stay there. But give yourself a time limit. Then change scene, go to a yoga class, take a walk, call a friend (do not continue the whine-fest), do something that creates new pathways in the brain. You have every ounce of power over your experience. Sometimes all we have to do is change our minds.

Love,

Elle

Shaken Awake

Wednesday, May 12th, 2010

Perhaps you have been there…

Its the time when something so devastating happens that you feel as if someone just pulled the anesthesia plug from your own open-heart surgery.

Suddenly you are wide-awake with pain, lights held over you and your heart feels, well…broken open. You didn’t sign a release form, no one told you that anything was wrong with your heart in the first place and BAM! here you are. Doused in pain and dazed with confusion.

Then something wild happens…

There is a sweet fire in your chest. A  bright clarity shines with such intensity that you don’t know whether you are in pain or seeing clearly for the first time. All of your priorities align immediately and everything else drops away.

This is awakening through adversity.

Then we have a choice: we either open up and embrace the moment, or we shut down and block the experience.

We rarely have much choice over what occurs in our lives but we ultimately have complete control over how we re-act to circumstance. Can we slow down, take a few deep breaths and bring compassion to ourselves and other before acting? Or do we allow ourselves to be caught up in the pain and blinded to the possibility of a greater lesson?

This is the practice.

What arises during our yoga is preparation for the “big stuff”. On our mats, we create tiny microcosms of our lives. We find ourselves either embracing or enduring asanas.

The reactions to small things like holding DownDog for an extended period of time can tell us many things about your level of patience. Our standing poses are telltale of how balanced we currently feel in our hearts. How compassionate can we be towards ourselves when holding long yin postures?

Everything translates. It is up to us to decipher the code.

So when the awakening knocks like thunder on our hearts – we can be ready. Take a few deep breaths and soften into whatever it is we need to face and embrace.

Knowing that nothing is permanent. This too shall pass.

With love and gratitude,

Elle